Am I lost?

I don’t feel like talking to people anymore. Or maybe I have run out of topics. Maybe people also don’t find much to talk with me.

I’ve become boring.

I’ve become one-dimensional. I don’t believe I should do what everyone else is doing. I’m running out of options and independent thoughts.

I have my focus, yet I am losing focus. And strangely there is a lack of an objective of what to focus on.

I am not able to follow my head or my heart. I’m hanging somewhere in between.

I know what I can do. I know I don’t even have an inkling what all I can achieve. I feel as though I am cutting myself off from the world.

I’m not in a negative mood. Trust me when I say that. I’m positive.

I’m too engrossed in thinking all I can’t do at times that I forget I can also do something.

It’s not an adolescent rant. I’m way past that. It’s more of an adult child speaking where I’ve suddenly lost myself, where I suddenly find confusion.

I know who I am. Few people do. My fault is I don’t know when to come out of the shell.

My life has been a painful journey.

I feel lonely some of the time. And yet sometime my solitude is bliss.

I have dreams of my own which I share with no one. I’d love to fulfill them. But then they require lots of energy, and I haven’t had much energy lately.

I feel I’m a letdown at times, both to myself and to my family.

I used to be a joker at times. Even now I am one, but in a different way. I’d love to be one for life.

And I feel I’m lost …

Just for Today

1. Throw out nonessential numbers. This includes age, weight and height. Let the doctors worry about them. That is why you pay 'them!'

2. Keep only cheerful friends. The grouches pull you down

3. Keep learning. Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever. Never let the brain idle.' An idle mind is the devil's workshop.' And the devil's name is Alzheimer's

4. Enjoy the simple things

5. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath

6. The tears happen. Endure, grieve, and move on. The only person, who is with us our entire life, is ourselves. Be ALIVE while you are alive

7. Surround yourself with what you love, whether it's family, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever. Your home is your refuge

8. Cherish your health: If it is good, preserve it. If it is unstable, improve it. If it is beyond what you can improve, get help

9 Don't take guilt trips. Take a trip to the mall, even to the next county, to a foreign country but NOT to where the guilt is

10. Tell the people you love that you love them, at every opportunity

(I got this in an email and I loved it so much I thought I would share it)

Feeling Stupid?

If you ever feel a little bit stupid, just dig this up and read it again; you'll begin to think you're a genius.

(On September 17, 1994, Alabama's Heather Whitestone was selected as Miss America 1995.)
Question: If you could live forever, would you and why?
Answer: "I would not live forever, because we should not live forever, because if we were supposed to live forever, then we would live forever, but we cannot live forever, which is why I would not live forever,"
--Miss Alabama in the 1994 Miss USA contest.

"Whenever I watch TV and see those poor starving kids all over the world, I can't help but cry. I mean I'd love to be skinny like that, but not with all those flies and death and stuff."
--Mariah Carey

"Smoking kills. If you're killed, you've lost a very important part of your life,"
-- Brooke Shields, during an interview to become spokesperson for federal anti-smoking campaign .

"I've never had major knee surgery on any other part of my body,"
--Winston Bennett, University of Kentucky basketball forward.

"Outside of the killings, Washington has one of the lowest crime rates in the country,"
--Mayor Marion Barry, Washington , DC .

"That lowdown scoundrel deserves to be kicked to death by a jackass, and I'm just the one to do it,"
--A congressional candidate in Texas

"Half this game is ninety percent mental."
--Philadelphia Phillies manager, Danny Ozark

"It isn't pollution that's harming the environment. It's the impurities in our air and water that are doing it."
--Al Gore, Vice President

"I love California . I practically grew up in Phoenix ."
-- Dan Quayle

"We've got to pause and ask ourselves: How much clean air do we need?"
--Lee Iacocca

"The word "genius" isn't applicable in football. A genius is a guy like Norman Einstein."
--Joe Theisman, NFL football quarterback & sports analyst.

"We don't necessarily discriminate. We simply exclude certain types of people."
-- Colonel Gerald Wellman, ROTC Instructor.

"Your food stamps will be stopped effective March 1992 because we received notice that you passed away. May God bless you. You may reapply if there is a change in your circumstances. "
--Department of Social Services, Greenville , South Carolina

"Traditionally, most of Australia 's imports come from overseas."
--Keppel Enderbery

"If somebody has a bad heart, they can plug this jack in at night as they go to bed and it will monitor their heart throughout the night. And the next morning, when they wake up dead, there'll be a record."
--Mark S. Fowler, FCC Chairman

Feeling smarter yet?

(from an email)

Good Morning

Did you know that Research has shown health benefits of laughter ranging from strengthening the immune system to reducing food cravings, to increasing your threshold for pain. Humor also has several important stress relieving benefits. Laughter reduces the level of stress hormones. It also increases the level of health-enhancing hormones like endorphins. Laughter increases the number of antibody-producing cells and enhances the effectiveness of T cells. All this means a stronger immune system, as well as fewer physical effects of stress. Some of the benefits of laughing
Physical Release: It provides a good workout for the heart.
Distraction: Laughter brings the focus away from anger, guilt, stress, and negative emotions.
Perspective: Humor can give us a more lighthearted perspective and help us view events as 'challenges', thereby making them less threatening and more positive.
Social Benefits of Laughter: Laughter connects us with others. Also, laughter is contagious, so if you bring more laughter into your life, you can most likely help others around you to laugh more, and realize these benefits as well. By elevating the mood of those around you, you can reduce their stress levels, and perhaps improve the quality of social interaction you experience with them, reducing your stress level even more!

So considering the fact there seems to be so much negative going on in the world around me, I see it and read it everywhere sometimes it feels like I can't escape it. I might not be able to do much to change the happenings of the world but I can do something about myself. Laugh more, it feels good and it makes those around me feel better. That’s a very easy way to try to help make life around me a little bit better. And it’s healthy for me too!!!!!!

I wonder

If it really hurts when that terrorist loser pees now.He shouldn’t be too hard on himself, when they said go blow up your package, they should have been more specific.

If baby carrots are really little oompa loompa fingers?

If those who judge others will burn in Hell?

Why prepositions are not words to end sentences with.

If some people are superficial, or maybe that's just on the surface.

Is all the free advice I get worth what I paid for it?

If I can't define irony; but, will I know it when I see it?

Why if there’s one thing I can’t stand, it’s intolerance?

If this new year will be kinder to us all.

If science will spend less money screwing around growing longer thicker eye lashes and find a cure for cancer?

Happy New Year