Thursday Thoughts

1. I am the tallest female in my family and I'm 5'8".
2. I need to stop shouting and cussing at other drivers.
3. I need to say something nice to at least one person per day, and actually mean it.
4. I still don’t like my food to touch on my plate.
5. I think day old coffee tastes like the inside of a tanker truck.
6. I think there are some labels you really should read.
7. I don’t think there is ever a bad time to eat chocolate.
8. I am learning it is ok to not always have all the answers.
9. I think confidence makes everyone look better
10. I love lists.

Snow Day

These were taken out my back door a few minutes ago.. this is the Wabash River.Click on the photo for a larger view. It is so pretty.

Good Bye February

Out my back door today:

Taken out my back door today. This is only some of the geese.

This is the Wabash River. Isn’t it beautiful?

Why

Last night a friend ask me why I blog. It didn’t bother me so much, as it made me wonder why do I do this? I guess the answer is that there are times when there are things I want to do, say things I need to say, or express anger I am feeling. There are times when there is no one to talk to, no one who would understand, or maybe just that there is no one who really cares and sometimes there is just time when I don’t want to talk to anyone. For all those times I decided to blog, there have been times when I was unsure how I actually felt, times when I was fuming, and times when I did not know what I thought. It is an indirect way of releasing thoughts, fears and even anger. I could have turned to a bottle of scotch, or made an appointment with a shrink. Instead I do this, I have no great solutions, no great insights but it does not matter if it is useful or not, appreciated or not, enjoyed or not. It is just something I do for me

Favorite Things

1. deBrand dark chocolate
2. Pandora radio
3. Chap stick
4. Cupcakes
5. Lady Gray tea
6. Spring flowers
7. Rainbows
8. Clean Linens
9. My computer
10. My cell phone

What a difference a day and several inches of rain makes:

We had quite a rain last night. I am very lucky to live where I do, as we have flood protection. In the 60’s the Corps of Engineers created a system of dikes and a dam on the Wabash River, that saves this little town from future flooding and it created J. Edward Roush Lake. A 900 acre lake, J. Edward Roush Lake was formerly known as Huntington Lake. It lies in an area rich in Native American history. The lake was completed by the Corps of Engineers in 1968.

The little fisherboy is named John and was a gift from a friend. So far he hasn't caught any fish. Isn’t he cute?

50 questions

1. What is the color of your toothbrush? Blue

2. Name one person who made you smile today. Becca

3. What were you doing at 8 am this morning? Sleeping

4. What were you doing 45 minutes ago? Washing dishes

5. What is your favorite candy bar? anything dark chocolate

6. Have you ever been to a strip club? nope

7. What is the last thing you said aloud? Good bye to my mom on the phone

8. What is your favorite ice cream? Vanilla Bean

9. What was the last thing you had to drink? Coffee

10. Do you like your wallet? I LOVE IT! was a gift from Billie years ago I treasure it.

11. What was the last thing you ate? Cheese

12. Have you bought any new clothing items this week? No.

13. The last sporting event you watched? Nascar… go Mark Martin

14. What is your favorite flavor of popcorn? Movie butter

15. Who is the last person you sent a text message to? Becca

16. Ever go camping? Yep

17. Do you take vitamins daily? No

18. Do you go to church every Sunday? No.

19. Do you have a tan? Nope.

20. Do you prefer Chinese food over pizza? Oh yeah.

21. Do you drink your soda with a straw? I do.

22. What did your last text message say? Becca and I made a date to go to Bummies

23. What are you doing tomorrow? Nothing different from what I'm doing today.

24. Favorite color? Pink

25. Look to your left; what do you see? A lot of house plants

26. What color is your watch? Don’t wear one 

27. What do you think of when you hear “Australia”? Greg

28. Would you strip for money? no 

29. Do you go in a fast food place or just hit the drive thru? I prefer the drive thru.

30. What is your favorite number? 5

31. Who’s the last person you talked to on the phone? My mom.

32. Any plans today? Nothing special

33. In how many states have you lived? 1 state.

34. Biggest annoyance right now? I am not annoyed right now.

35. Last song listened to? Cee Lo Green Forget You

36. Can you say the alphabet backwards? Nope

37. Do you have a maid service clean your house? yes

38. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time? My Crocs

39. Are you jealous of anyone? No there are times when I am envious of certain people. I am quite content with my life.

40. Is anyone jealous of you? Again, I don't think so.

41. Do you love anyone? Of course

42. Do any of your friends have children? Yes.

43. What do you usually do during the day? What ever I want..:)

44. Do you hate anyone that you know right now? No. 'hate' is too strong a word. 

45. Do you use the word hello daily? Yes.

46. What color is your car? bronze

47. What size wedding ring do you wear? I am allergic to wedding rings.

48. Are you thinking about someone right now? No.

49. Have you ever been to Six Flags? No 

50. How did you get your worst scar? My scars don’t show.

Immortality

I turn 70 tomorrow...yup way over 1/2 a century old, way over 1/2 of 100 years old, 70...Seventy Years Old... This has gotten me to thinking about my life, what I have accomplished, where I am. I do have three children, 5 grandchildren, and a couple of ex-husbands. I think I have relatively good health, other than my COPD, or so the Dr. tells me. I do know that I am going to die though. At some time everything dies, plants, animals, people. Die, Death, Dead....those words mean so much more now. When you die, you are gone. You aren't here, you don't talk on the phone with your son, you don't attend a grandchild's school production. You aren't watching football or baseball or a Nascar race. You won't be going to any concerts...because you aren't here. You are Dead. Gone. How will I be remembered? Will I be remembered? Oh, I know my children will remember me...often at first, then as time goes on memories will fade. I will always be there as their mom. They will remember times and events, little things. But after they are gone, who will remember me?

P.S. I haven't received any bad news or anything like that...just turning 70.

My Back Yard

This is the Wabash River

Get Used To It

Getting used to it. That sounds hard doesn't it? And maybe a bit cynical "get used to it", but I have decided to use it as a more positive bit of personal philosophy. I seem to have adjusted to my new life style fairly well, I have tried to meet it with little resistance and have chosen to "get used to it" and be thankful for my half full glass. Every day I have a choice, I can have a good day or I can have a bad day. I try to chose the good day. That is not to say I am always successful. Always remember no matter how frustrated, tired or helpless you feel, it will be much easier if you can just get used to your new way of living your best life. It is a rainy day today here in paradise, so my elephant is back perched on my chest making each breath a chore, but I am "getting used to it."

Another Day.

4/8/09

Hi there I am a disabled senior citizen (where did the time go?) I have COPD. I live with it every day. With this blog I hope to give others a look at the daily challenges and obstacles I face as I try to lead a normal life. I am on 6 liters of oxygen. and am hooked to a concentrator. 24 hours a day 7 days a week. And I am thankful for it. If I want to go out, I must take a small o2 bottle and carry it with me. It lasts about an hour, and is very heavy. I live alone and can pretty much do anything I need done with a few exceptions. Obviously I can't cut the grass, but I do my own laundry, cooking etc. I do have a lady who cleans for me and my son is very good to help me with anything. I am not very active so I have gained weight. Also being sedentary I seem to have more than my share of bladder infections. All I try to handle with stoic good humor.