Mother's Day

Mother’s Day is celebrated to honor all mothers and express gratitude for the hardships they bear in bringing up a child.
But what if you don’t have that warm fuzzy feeling toward your Mother? What if she was cold and remote to you? Every year it is a chore to find that card that is bright and flowery and says nothing about loving Mothers, how close you are, what a good mother she was etc. I used to send flowers, but it was never acknowledged that they arrived and I was never given a thank you. To this day I am the one who keeps in touch, she sometimes calls on my birthday, if she remembers. What you did say? Dementia ? No she does not have dementia she remembers every thing, every freakin, little thing I have ever done wrong in my life, and nothing I did right. My mother is very angry and I am pretty sure now that it has nothing to do with me. I spent the biggest part of my life wanting her approval. It never came and now I realize it never will. Last year for her birthday my brother arranged for a birthday party for her. It was a very hot day in June. Two of my sons and their families went to see her. There were 9 of us. We drove 2 hours one way to visit with her. OMG she was happy to see us and even hugged me, seriously that is the only hug I EVER remember from her. But then it was back to usual. Nit picky things from her, showing her anger at the world. So mom, I give up. I tried and now I quit it is up to you. You know where I live and you have my phone number. Your card is in the mail. Mothers Day always makes me sad.